I was watching videos of myself when I was a teenager today. I looked constantly unhappy. I knew I’d been alienated from my peers, and that I’d held them in contempt and was constantly wary of people. I knew I’d never shared my innermost thoughts with people because I’d known they would never be able to understand or relate to them. Today, I wondered why. Had I been mistaken as a teenager? Was all this the result of bad experiences with a few people being generalised too broadly?
This is what I thought, and then later today, some people I know were talking about a child who had been given medication for ADHD. They smiled and nodded. They talked about how ‘well he was doing’ and how much ‘his grades had improved at school.’ These people, like the majority of people on planet Earth, are nothing but ego and are incapable of introspection or self-criticism. What they did not do was consider that it is wrong to say there is something wrong with a child because the education system cannot meet his needs. The system doesn’t work, so they blame the child. The child is bored in class, so instead of making the lesson less boring they say there is something wrong with the child. The child has his own thoughts and opinions, and instead of encouraging the child to think critically and independently they say there must be something wrong with the child or he is ‘answering back’. The child is unhappy because he is being forced to learn about something he doesn’t care about or has no aptitude for, so instead of finding something the child is interested in or good at, they say there is something wrong with the child. The child doesn’t see why he should have to take orders from someone he doesn’t respect, so instead of earning the child’s respect, we say there is something wrong with the child.
At the school I went to, you could get in trouble for denying that a Catholic priest can magically turn wine and bread into the body and blood of Christ. Instead of thinking that the child has a point and this is an absurd belief, there must be something wrong with the child. The teachers simply continue to indoctrinate children into Catholicism, which in my books automatically makes them enemies of the human race. People complain about child abuse and child slavery, but medicating a child for ADHD is worse than beating them with a stick. Reaching into their mind and controlling their thoughts a more complete form of slavery than than forcing them to work in a sweat shop.
And the same people who have these disgusting opinions claim to believe in democracy, ‘human rights’ and freedom’. The modern politically correct people don’t give a damn about children. This is one of the things that make political correctness more disgusting than the way people thought hundreds of years ago, because while people in those days were racist or sexist, they were at least honest about their selfishness, but now these people who are really no better pride themselves on how ‘liberal’ and ‘compassionate’ they are. Today, the wikipedia article on Confucius says that Confucianism preaches ‘respect of elders by their children and (in traditional interpretations) of husbands by their wives’, as if it was a barbaric ideology when it was interpreted so that women had an inferior position, but that children absolutely do not matter and that as long as women are not considered inferior everything is fine.
Funnily enough, even some anti-Hitler propagandists realise that the National Socialists have a radically different attitude towards children. I remember reading a passage in ‘The Boy in the Striped Pjamas’ where the Commandant of Auschwitz’s ten year-old son confronts him, and the Commandant compliments him on his bravery and says it is a healthy thing for a child to be like that.
I let my guard down, felt ready to forgive and accept people, and then they immediately do something disgusting to let me know it was a mistake to do so. If people ever wondered why I seem depressed or hostile or unmotivated, then this sort of thing, as well as a thousand others (not just childcare issues), is the reason why.
I have always looked down on the sort of people who go around looking for a fight. If you put a group a group of people in a room at work or at school, they will eventually divide into separate tribes and start bickering with each other. They do so not because they have a genuine disagreement, but because they like conflict and look for excuses to argue with each other. One of the best examples is women gossiping with each other. But I am the opposite. I am always ready to excuse and forgive people, and I have done so many times even when they have not deserved it. I have picked at my own flaws when I should have been condemning others. The fact that despite this constant forgiveness I have become as misanthropic as I am just goes to show how evil humanity really is.
When I was 16, I ran away from home. I refused to be one of the people who just accept the way things are, who sees these disgusting things happening and does nothing. I made a stand. I’d listened to my family and my school telling me for long enough how my only hope to get a big house and a fast car was to do things their way, so I proved to them how little I cared about these things by walking away from them and rejecting their way of doing things without reservation. I have no motivation to work or compete in life, because I’m not interested in being ‘successful’, which today means having a house with an extra couple of bedrooms and an extra holiday every year (I mean, seriously, are people really motivated by this? Do they really think that a bigger house and a couple of extra weeks off is something worth working for? What the fuck is the big deal?) What I am interested in is fighting to create a world where people like Leon Eisenstein (Jew, ‘discoverer of ADHD) and Jed Rubenfeld (Jew, covered here: http://aryanism.net/culture/childcare/) or the Jews who think the Messiah will come when all children are disobedient to their parents (http://www.jewfaq.org/mashiach.htm) are lined up against a wall and shot like they deserve. I really have no motivation to waste my time getting a degree or working my ass off to get some shitty office job while I know people like this are still allowed to breathe and nothing is being done to strip them of this right.
In fact, I had some very specific plans in mind about how I would fight to build the sort of world I wanted to live in once I’d severed ties with my old life. I failed, and I still remember being brought back to my parents’ house after several days of being missing, with the asshole who lived next door saying something like ‘Someone’s been a very silly boy.’ Why? Because I refuse to just smile and nod like a zombie at the disgusting things that plague our world? These people are cowards. They have no purpose in life nor do they want one. They ask us what we have ever achieved by taking risks, and we must ask them what they have ever achieved by not taking risks. They tell us our idealism will never lead to success in life, and we must ask them what good their worldly success will be when they are rotting in a wooden box. We might have something to show for the lives we live, but they will have nothing. They are so proud of their ‘achievements’, but they have achieved nothing. The world is full of evil when they enter it, and it remains full of evil when they leave because instead of fighting the evil they waste their lives trying to gain more social status than their neighbour, and in doing so prove their mediocrity. They make a fuss about pretend enemies, like a rival football team, but do nothing about real enemies. History will forget their mediocrity and passiveness. They will make no difference to the world, and they will not try to. That is not our fate. We have declared ourselves to be at war with the world.